A brief moment of sanity
I've been having a hard time of late. The voices in my mind keep talking. I've worked out a way to get them to make ordered sense, so it's not quite as bad as it was. Only, when I try to write it down I get a jumbled cacophony of editing advice when even something seemingly as trivial a comma counts a as show-stopper. There's high points; spotting a friend doing a turn as a drunken stranger of Italian origin was funny; obviously it was a complete stranger, but it was the same guy. It's even harder when I wander into a shop and get so close to the truth I find myself being pushed right to the back of my mind.
The kids are funny though. Especially when they go to the extremes of making the point in ways so sublimely odd. I had to get them to work out a way to "not tell mom" before I'd go round. Watching a child of almost one start battling a child of eight with the Force was funny; turning the DVD player Off and On; selecting play from the menu whilst keeping his brother from the DVD player had me in fits of giggles.
I don't think I've mentioned having a daughter here before. Normal for me, not mentioning stuff. Although I think I have mentioned kiddie oddness arising from Dr Who. Even odder to go from oblique references to her in two of my last three blog posts; to a child of four claiming "The TARDIS is MINE!" two or three days ago; to "oooh look, the Doctor's got a daughter" on prime-time BBC yesterday.
Although it's hard to go see my family and sometimes an to feel presence of a Police Officer in the room where I should be seeing my Wife.
Something is happening to me. The voices in my mind are coalescing. Pulling me to a point where I can and will let it all out. And I just don't know if I've got the strength. Although the cats have started talking to me again (be discrete I told them I'd keep it secret), so things are looking up in the strength department.