Irritation
Of late I find my blog has become a little bit too technical. Not that there is anything wrong with this. Part of my reason for starting a blog was to give me a place to store the notes I create. There are three aims behind this. Firstly to create a formal repository that I myself can use. Allowing others access to possibly useful information is the second reason. The final reason is that fulfilling the second increases the efficacy of the first. So far I find I'm doing okay.
However, I also intended my blog as a place to explore ideas. Again having an audience forces me to do a better job. As to why I want to explore ideas... well, I need practise. So much goes on in my head that very rarely am I ever able to make much sense of it all. And I really would like to make sense of it all. I need to learn to focus: crystallise my thoughts: draw conclusions: look for flaws: address assumptions. Again, ignoring the cyclical stop/start nature of the muse, I think I'm doing okay.
To aid me with my blogging tasks I created a structure within which to work. The technical structure involves text files edited with Vim, Makefiles, several custom scripts, a CVS repository, and a somewhat crazy Apache setup. It can't have escaped your attention that there's supposed to be some content structure. There is also a structure to the way I write non-techie stuff. One idea per blog written in a five paragraph essay format. Only, I'm not happy with the structure.
I irritated myself into tidying thing up technically a few weeks back. It's still partly hideous, but I find it's not quite so obvious. The content structure is probably sub-optimal. Only, I don't really care. So I'm happy to ignore any deficiencies. But it's the writing structure that's I've been annoying myself with for the longest time. Things which seemed to follow a pattern, a progression, in my head don't come out right when I type. Hence my home directory is littered with the failed attempts to warp memes into any semblance of sense in the required format. I seem to get so far, realise I've not actually said anything I set out to. And stop.