Re Programme!
The system keeps throwing me back into myself. In ways which defy reality. Because it's all real. Only I feel something I need to bottle-up. So I do. Walk within the relity tunnel of others. Never able to find the words to express myself. Then I take it out later. Open it up and discover a well of anger bourne of frustration. See the patterns of my life playout in my mind.
I find I'm looking for something. You only seem to show me what it's not.